For the past few months one of my biggest complaints has been work. I feel completely unfulfilled with my job and I have been actively looking for a new one. All of my searching has lead me to dead ends and to jobs that may be perfect once I am out of school, but don’t seem to fit well now.
The good parts about my job are that I have a lot of free time to work on homework, I am well compensated, and it is relatively close to home and school. The bad parts are not feeling stretched to work hard, some days feeling like an overpaid cleaning lady, and spending the better part of 40 hours a week alone.
The other day I had the epiphany that the reason that I probably haven’t found the new job that I am envisioning being perfect for me is that it doesn’t exist. Even though what I am doing right now is unfulfilling, unfulfilling is exactly what I need. I need the time to do homework so that I don’t have to spend all weekend doing it at home. I need to be well paid. I need my brain to be clear enough by the end of the day that I concentrate in class at night.
So, for now I am going to call off the job hunt. I am going to work on being more content in my current situation and grateful that I have found a place that will allow all of those things to happen for me. I am going to work hard to get the fulfillment that I need from the work that I do in school and not from work.
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